i'm at the point in my life where i don't even care if i'm 'skinny'...i just want to be healthy for my family. i've given up on finding the 'old me' and i just want to live longer and be there for my children as long as possible.
so, i go get a gym membership. now i feel better...i can go whenever i want and really feel like i'm accomplishing what i want, ya know? the only problem is...i go all the time now and i'm watching my diet a little more and OMG i've GAINED MORE WEIGHT!!!! i realize that it's supposedly from building muscle but how frustrating is that!? i seriously stepped on the scale this morning thinking...ok i'll be rewarded from going to the gym almost every day for the last couple of weeks...and much to my dismay i was UP 2 lbs!! UGH!
so...that's my dilema. i could NOT go to the gym and possibly gain more weight from NOT going...or i can keep going and gain more weight still. what the HELL!?!?!?
can you tell i'm very frustrated today?? lol
amanda:)
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